Khamis, 25th March 2010

Alhamdulillah, ya Allah.. Hari ni selesai sudah mesyuarat. Aku bg outline transfer report dan diorg soh buat minor adjustment je, combine chapter 3 ngan chapter 2, tambah satu chapter. Alhamdulillah, layout ok je. Masa lps present package baru tu, rasa lega sangat2. Rasa guilty pun ada jugak. I have looking at complex mathematical model yg bila simulate tak jalan, nie bila run menjadi saja. Its techno-economic model senang, really2222 makes me feel guilty (bukan pandang rendah model2 yg bukan engineering, tak bermaksud lgsg ye). But I think that its good for my spirit, n sv pun agreed that it will be a chapter for my thesis (thesis ok, bukan transfer report..) so kena buat betul2 so that thesis betul nanti kita kopipes je.. haa guilty lagi.. tp perlu cari sumber sohih sbb kena tgk process configuration dia dulu.. Alhamdulillah sekali lagi. Its almost 6 pm, perlu kembali ke pangkuan keluarga (Woodsley je dulu).. speaking of which, tak bgtau sv lg nak cuti lama.. takpe la, next week la.. oh ya, wpun my transfer is not till end of may, aku sudah tau sape examiner.. ooh no.. hope that it will be all right.. Ameen..

venting..

Bersesuaian dengan tema blog saya, 'Say Whatever', its taking a literal meaning, such that I can say what ever I want. So tema kali nie ialah ventin (erk, mmg bukan biasanya aku venting2 ker.. ;p). Anyways, that rather crisp into a side, terdetik hati nak menjengah ke blog peribadi seorang personaliti muslimah nie yang femes la kt msia tu, dan dia punya venting entry (mcm tunggang langang pulak ayat; what ever la) ada kena mengena dengan aurat. baca punya baca, i totally disagree with her and after a quite scan through the comments section in the bottom, my heart sinks. kecewa sebab bila seseorang personaliti memberi komen mengikut hati, orang yang kurang berpengetahuan mungkin boleh terdorong untuk terikut2, biarpun benda itu salah. She commented on aurat and even went on saying she knew the aurat for women, all but her face and tapak tangan. so selain tu adalah aurat. i have to admit, i was jahil on this, but i think that i have improved a bit. in my opinion, women should dress as though they are ready to perform solat, senang je.. tutup semua siap2 kecuali muka dan tapak tangan, tak gitu ke? aduss, cik abang mesti tak suka kalau dia tau wifey dia berblog hal2 sensitip nie.. anyways, its just my 2 cents, probably not worth anything at all.. ;p

Monday

I am not feeling well today, bangun pagi tekak rasa perit je.. Oh no, harap tak kena virus lagi. Sungguh tak larat rasanya. I need energy untuk teruskan kerja2 ku. I know for certain its not Monday blues.. Ya Allah, berilah aku kekuatan dan kesihatan.. Amin..

Today..

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim..

Alhamdulillah dah hari jumaat dah ni, pejam celik, pejam celik. sekejap sangat masa berlalu. for the first time, for the last couple of weeks i felt that i am on the roll, terasa diri ini bekerja dengan kuat sekali, selain mendapat idea dan ilham yang mencurah2. alhamdulillah sangat2. pulun study berhari2 cari macamana nak dapat kan gibbs energy of formation dependence on temperature, serba tak kena. Antoine (sebutan nya baru ku tahu: 'An-tuan' ye kawan2, bukan 'An-toyn' seperti sekian lama ku sebut) correlation ku cuba, NASA polynomial ku try, virial EOS ku test, semua tak kena, tak menjadi. Dari isnin lagi. Last2 pagi tadi jumpa paper yang refer to satu buku publish the year after i was born, 'Synthetic fuel' . Memandangkan aku buntu, aku jejaki jugak la buku itu, nasib baik ada dilibrary. Menarik kat sini, segala buku dr zaman tok kadok ada, dan gaya penulisan buku lama2 ni macam bercerita. Kalau spend masa untuk baca betul2 mmg akan mudah faham apa yang diorang nak sampaikan. selama hari ini aku suka sangat base on the cover, kiranya i judge the books by its covers la. kalau buku lama2 dan buruk2 skit mmg boleh kata takkan baca punya la. suka cover yang cantik2 je. (rasa byk je buku2 lama kt perpustakaan tun sri lanang yang tak dihargai..). the point being is that, zaman sekarang orang dok war2kan penemuan2 baru tapi betul ke? teringat kt sv ku sorang nie, ada koleksi buku dr zaman dia undergrad dan phd (btw dia dapat phd thn 1964.. ;p) ada je buku dia soh baca, thesis lama dia soh refer. haa there's even a concept of heat transfer dia kata dia rasa silap quote, sbb ada org german yang dah publish dulu sebelum the person yang dia quote tu.. (Schumanm simple model - heat transfer between solid and gas).

Where was I?? Ok so dapat la buku Synthetic fuel tu, tgk2 dia quote orang lain jgk, tp nasib baik correlation dia simple and direct. rupa2nya NASA etc kalau nak dapatkan enthalpy terus boleh la, tp heran, patut boleh je nak dapatkan enthalpy of formation drp tu. since i thought that i had enough 'drama' (chewah2 study pun drama jugak..) i proceeded, nanti la i know eventually kena figure out jgk NASA nie (its most reliable according to my sources), sbb yang buku tu limited je (ni kes tak tgk original source la nie.. aiyoo) tak kira2.

So i tried out in excel.. jadi2, dapat value as per references (yang tak bagi correlation) nak melompat dah nie (tak da la, just literally) then adjusted my program sekali tak jadi. i think this was about 2pm. godek2, adjust sana sini, jenuh dok pikir, rasa i duplicate sama mcm yang kt excel, kira manual using my calculator pun dapat je. aiyoo berdrama la lagi.. tp tiba2 tergerak hati tgk balik model saja tukar 'log10' ke 'log' je and run.. JADI!! ye ye ye.. Alhamdulillah2.. itu je ke?? godek kt 2 jam 30 min.. silly me. anyways, nasib baik dapat ilham tu, kuasa Allah jugak, sebab kalau tak sampai sudah tak boleh detect (ye la sebab dah sampai tahap taip balik satu2 program tu, punya la last resort habis)..

Kesimpulannya, model jadi, sekarang tinggal nak generate data and plot graph je la.. Plot graph pun boleh jd drama jugak. Godek2 Origin & Tecplot sorang2 tak mendatangkan hasil. So semalam mintak tolong postdoc plot kt origin. Senang bangat!! Dalam masa aku mengodek2 origin tu dah siap tukar ke matrix form dah tinggal tak plot je, boleh tak.. hehehhee.. sangat funny macam nak ketuk kepala sendiri. Anyways, dapat jugak plot data2 (btw nie data hysys) hysys pun aku buat jgk, dia kluar graph jgk tapi rangka2 aku nak surface (macam byk akal pulak - no la, sv yang nak surfac, so kena bagi surface la). ni pun tak habis buat lg.. wah byk betul kerja nak kena siapkan this weekend. yup this weekend, sbb next week nak kena start program baru given by another sv. yang ni, document dia release 4 march baru nie (hot from the oven) jumaat minggu lepas sanggup turun install kt pc aku. so i have to do something about it. dia jugak cakap this will be your chapter 3 or 4 in your thesis... (takuttt..)

Erm, rasa macam panjang pulak karangan aku ye hari nie. Rajin sangat pun tak, tp si kecik tu tidur dr aku balik tadi, nampak gaya mmg tidur sampai pagi la ni. So, ada la masa sikit. Well, karangan panjang2 pun memboringkan jgk. Better go now..

best wishes,

Alhamdulillah

Alhamdulillah.. Alhamdulillah.. Alhamdulillah..

I got a reply from the author of the paper that I really wanted yesterday.. Syukran ya Allah..

Berkesan jugak method i.e. kalau dah cari2, try Tanya orang dr uni lain tapi tak dapat jugak, try Tanya penulis article tu sendiri.. ;p and seriously mmg macam projek ku shj.. apa yg novel nya ye??

Housekeeping..

Yup, again.. This time its my endnotes. I opened a new file and had references AND the files attached to it.. Selesai sudah except for 5-6 references that I found but had no access to. The titles are very interesting so I had asked help from the yahoo group. Mintak2 lah ada. Especially the one by Sudiro. Macam cover the whole project pulak. Ya Allah, permudahkanlah urusan ku..

Sunday o SUNday..

Tonight we had some friends over for dinner. Though I had a bit of a headache earlier due to what I suspect as a reaction to bright sunlight (could it be possible??). Anyways, after downing a couple of Panadol extra, I was up and away cooking. Not that I cooked anything hard. I had marinated 2 medium size chicken with 'setonah' herbs.. hahhahaha.. it would never fail to give me a good laugh of having mention the word 'setonah'.. Its from my mom, whenever she would cook something in 'bantai-bantai' style, if anyone (me usually) would ask what is she cooking, she would say 'setonah'.. hehehehhe.. so it kind of refer to resipe apa-apa je la..

Anyways, I marinated the 2 whole chicken as cik abang wanted ayam golek. But then later in the evening (and since it was a bit late), I thought that it would be better and I would feel a lot more confident making ayam percik than the roast alone version.. So, despite having being marinated, the chicken were 'percik'ed instead. So that's that. I had also prepared pajeri nenas, that's to cik abang who had kupas the pineapple, and kari daging for kuah. But in the end, I realized everything we had is santan based, but whatever la.. Oh I forgot to mention the nasi tomato. Easy peasy lemon squeezy. We are so overdoing the fat thing! I used up all the vegetable-based ghee. But fat is fat wherever the base is from right? And, I never thought that making all the nasi tomato, minyak, or biryani is so easy. Senang sangat-sangat-sangat.

Enough about food. It's my tenth month and I need to submit my 1st year transfer report end of this month. I am terrified. Bila teringatkan ini, mesti terus mati kutu, dah tak da idea nak tulis apa, so I better sign off, basuh pinggan dari mula cerita-cerita yang mengundang stress ini..