I read a while back that there will be a time that a toddler enter the phase in which they looove to play 'shadow' game where they think that its hillarious to repeat EVERYTHING we say and do. I have been waiting for almost 4 years for that time to come.. I found that its hillarious that Afnan would repeat what I say at slightly slower pace trying not to giggle too hard. Its even hillarious when I find a point in which I play the shadow game on her and she would try to say and do 'hard' things like do baby talk and see if i can copy her.. Its so fun! I hope that the phase would stay a while coz I am loving it!

Havent been well this past week. In on monday & tuesday. Wed stay at home. Thursday g but blk awal. Today nak g jgk but kn blk awal...

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Time's up!!

Di saat2 genting penghujung masa phd ni, diri di uji.. Allah sangat2 sayangkan aku dan sentiasa ingat akan diri ku..

halooo che tam..

Bye bye Che Puteh.. Hi Che Tam!

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Blocked nose, throbbing head and body ache. Not a good start for this week..
Had lemsip every 4 hours. Hope to be better tomorrow!


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Ya Allah pls give your pillar of strength..
For I am in need..
Grant me patience to carry on..


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Dugaan hr ni: continuous gastric dr sampai ke time blk. Nak blk tu tiba2 cramp kaw2, mcm kena tikam.. Mmg rasa nak collapse! Sekali lg ms tunggu cik abg.. Wahh sakit gila..


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I need to stop thinking about the time that is running out, and start thinking about how to overcome obstacles!


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Heard inspirational story from someone who just had his phd viva. No strong results, no firm conclusion, no conference, no publication. His contribution to body of knowledge is what he did cant be done! He was applauded & praised by the examiner.. Subhanallah! Allah has his way. He was saying other members in his research group had structured work and plan, and had time block for writing up. But he was running his experiments to titisan terakhir..

Adakah aku akan jadi macam tu jugak? Am so bad at multitasking!



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Hari ni dah hari ahad.. Cepatnya masa holiday berlalu.. Tghari nak g kedai cina utk cari udang or lobster.. Best2.. Fresh, ada org dr Wales parking van diorg kt depan kedai tu.. Hehhee nasib la kalau ada..


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Its been a while since the last entry. Byk benda yg nak ditulis tapi tak terzahir satu pun.. Facebook pun tgk2 mcm tu je. The new setting tak friendly langsung..
I have been under a lot of stress lately. Panic stricken affected my hormones. Nasib baik tak naik jerawat. But seriously Stress in my middle name la.
Teringat masa kt maktab dulu org kata, dlm Islam hanya ada satu penyakit or something like that, iaitu angin ahmar. So you were suppose to angin ahmar or what ever.. Pening la..
Seminggu ni dok tgk Extreme Makeover channel 20. Mengisahkan manusia2 yg tak bersyukur & nak ubah kejadian Allah. Hr tu ada pasal yg obese, so nak tummy tuck la, facelift la. Ok, my personal opinion if you nak kurus, kena la control makan (me la tu). Kalau nak kurus tp selera tajam apekeheyy nya ye tak (me lagi)? Macam makcik yg perlu kurus sblm boleh layak dibedah + liposuction tu, sekali makan pizza mak aaiii dia punya gaya!! Macam heaven gila!
Anyways, based on beberapa episod yg me tgk, perubahan takda la banyak sangat. Tapi semua manusia2 tu nampak macam dalam kesakitan!! Aku tgk lebih kurang je before n after surgery. Cuma bila last before the big reveap to family members yg berubah ketara; style rambut dan make up. Paling ketara yg lelaki2; sblm ada jambang but after, clean shaven. Nampak bersih dan kemas la. Tak boleh ke ubah style je?? Kenapa perlu go under the knife tu? Tak takut sakit ke??
Well tak TOT gila dah ni (terlalu off topic).. Sikit lagi cik abg sayang balik keje kami org g grocery shopping malam buta kat asda.. Tomorrow princess pink lala ada swimming class. Pagi sempat lg kalau nak g carboot York.. Haha.. Xberapa ada mood dah nak bercarboot ni.. Lately stress2 ni kurang shopping la.. Selamat ££.. Kena simpan untuk mengirai time boxing day nanti. Nak g Bicester Village.. Jomm!!




Taken kt Burton-upon-Water awal bulan hr tu..

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I need a break.. Kdg2 jln blk rumah boleh pikir mcm2, senyum sorg2, kadang2 nyanyi la.. Mcm org xbetul..

Td otw blk nampak sorg mamat dr jauh mcm gelak sorg2, pastu cakap sorg2 dgn kuat. Aku panik jap, try avoid dia tp dek krn dia jln laju xsmpat nak lencong, dia dah kat tepi.. Ler ckp tpon rupanya!! Tu la asyik pikir org xbetul je, diri sendiri yg tah pape....
Ada benda pelik bakal aku buat esok i.e. petik bunga lavender.. Been resisting all week long.. Gatal sgt tgn ni! Segan weekdays org lalu lalang, sbb bunganya tepi jln..

Sigh!! Another distinctive pHd sign..

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I am engulfed with the idea of being engulfed!! Mcm byk sgt benda yg engulf aku.. Xda pun, but I am overwhelmed with overwhelming ideas!!
All in all, a strict target does good thing to your work ethic and effort.. Lets see how far it can take me..
Ujian besar hari ni, data2 ku dr cases smlm telah selamat di overwrite data hari ini.. Bahana tak save as awal2..

Sekian.. Oh ye, dah book travelodge £10 sale? Cepat2 la ye.. Nak kumpul duit utk beg dkny bicester village.. Huahua.. Specific nya target aku, mcm boleh dpt je.. So kena simpan duit la 1 hari £1, 2 bulan £60, boleh kot dpt seketui?
Hehehhehehehe.. Ngadanya!!


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Kesian anakku sorang ni, lately selalu sangat kena marah.. Dia pun tahu aku marah dia..
When I am angry, I mean really angry I have the tendency to clammed shut. So si kecik ni tahu la bila mama di pokpek2 tetiba diam je, I know that she knows that she's in trouble. Through the corner of my eyes, I saw her watching my every move.
Sigh.. She might have my traits. Sometimes when SHE is mad, she can keep silent for a bit and ignore us when we talk to her. Double sigh..

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I can see a light source in this dark time..

Somehow that jiwang statement sounds technical to me..


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Ada meeting awal pg ngan sv.. Takott!!


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Chapter 1 – Introduction; paling susah!! Betulla sv kata this should be the last chapter to be written.. susah nak describe masalah dunia.. max 10 pages..

Chapter 2 – Literature review; don't know what to focus on. Should we start from the vary basics; ie definition ke or can we get straight to the point?? Kat mana pulak nak critically review the literature??

Chapter 3 – Biasanya methodology or experimental setup.. aku?? Susahnya nak cakap; model development.. rasa macam cikai sangat, tp MAYBE kalau aku cakap to general public takda sapa paham.. tp examiner?? Mesti kate apsal ni pun boleh jadi chapter?? Subsection sudah…huhuhuhu (dah la baru ada 1 subsection!!)huuuuuuhuuuuu

Chapter 4 – Results.. What results???? Nak result hapanya model baru ada 1 set? Need 2 major sets of models and 5 sub-modelss..huuuuuuhuuuuuu..

Chapter 5 – More results……

Chapter 6 – Even more results…

Chapter 7 – Conclusion and future work.. Another phd perhaps??

Reference – sangat penting..

Nomenclature – my heart and soul…

Arrghh panic melampau..

Happy 30th birthday to me.. I'm 30.. The day was quite a blur to me.. I was showered with fb wishes.. -Tq fb-
Up until someone wished 30th birthday i had a good day.. Hahaaha.. I got a pink bagpack and this bouquet.. Lovely! Afnan sang me the birthday song.. "happy birthday to you.. Happy birthday to mama.. Happy birthday to you.. Ok tiup (blow the candles..)"


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One of her masterpieces..



This was a while ago, but what i remember; bottom left is a butterfly! Heheehe..




This is Afnan modelling her sunglasses..


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I need strength.. I need rest.. Nite nite..
Afnan is asleep.. She is going to school tomorrow..



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Boleh habis ke dalam masa 3 thn? I got 12 months left…. Tolak 3 bulan utk writing + submissions (to svS n examiner) + viva (yg plg awal 1 bulan lps submission)

I must be dreaming! Its NOT possible!! huuuuuuuuuu

Salam.. Lama dah tak tulis apa2 kt sini.. Bulan 4 dan 5 ni sangat bz.. Hujung bulan 4 hr tu holi holiday.. scenery yg sgt best.. will want to have an entry on that soon.. bulan 5 pulak, what can I say, its my 24^th months.. need I say more?? Huhu.. my 2^nd year report is due… tak compulsory but good to have (sv le ckp ni..) thinking seriously of whats going to go in my thesis.. part development ada but results takda.. boleh tak??hhuhuhuuhuh.. I don't want to talk about my work! Its too stressfull.. gtg.. daa

Afnan loves pretending that she's a waitress taking orders;

Papa, what would you like? (it actually smashed words that sounds something like 'whawouchalike') and write it down on her note pad.
Then she would ask me,
Mama, what would you like? And she would always ask; Afnan?? As in asking me to ask her what she would like to order.. Hahaha..
You could order anything from mee, ice cream etc and she would hand in the pretend version.. Its so sweet that at her age she is able to comprehend imagination concepts.. Yeah, i have always role playing with her, one of the earlier plays being making hot coffee that needs cooling before consuming, that sort of things.. She knows a cup of coffee and was able to imaging without having it insight.. That is impressive for me..
Anyways, i am feeling light headed, probably drowsy from antihistamines... Zzzzzz.. Nitey!


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Nursery..

Afnan started her 1st trial last week..



Masuk2 je terus painting la.. Minat sungguh!
Yesterday was her 2nd trial..
Balik rumah i asked her;
What's your friend name?
Melissa..
What's your teacher's name?
Nicola..

Betul la tu sbb mmg tau teacher dia nama Nicola.. Heheehe.. Cikgu dia bg report kt my dear hubby kt Afnan tak nangis etc, mmg pun.. Sbbnya mmg dia dah tak sabar sgt2 nak g school tu..

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Penat stress sedih helpless tired hopeless fatigueness dah run out of descriptive words that can express my feelings.. Rasa down sgt2.. Dah tak larat sgt.. Nak break tp rasa mcm dah byk sgt breaknya.. Stress breaks, weekend worry free..


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Subhanallah.. Ingin aku panjangkan kesyukuran ini pd Allah swt yang maha pemurah, maha penyayang, pemilik ilmu pengetahuan.. Sebentar tadi aku terasa sangat humbled, diberikan sedetik ilham yang memberi impak yang sangat sangat besar.. Dari kelmarin aku membedek2 model aku tanpa jaya. Semalam aku terasa sangat stress, balik rumah awal dan buat kek yg mana dgn izin Allah, mata aku terhijab dari melihat satu langkah penting; tambah tepung ke dalam adunan kek keju kapas. Terasa sangat rugi, tp aku masih berfikiran positif kerana telah alami stress yg lebih besar siangnya. Bukan apa, aku dengan yakinnya mengadun full portian (patut first time buat buat la half ke kan..). Anyways, bhg atasnya boleh la dimakan sbb garing dek panas oven.
Berbalik ke perkara asal.. Dr semalam aku berdoa untuk mendapat sedikit ilham. Sambung berdoa sedikit pagi tadi.. Itu je, tak banyak pun (sungguh malu utk mengakui).. Now, up to approximately 10 minutes ago masih lagi membedek2, membega2 model ku itu tiba2 terdetik untuk mengubah satu safe variable yg aku simpan sbg constant sekarang. Subhanallah, hanya itu yg mampu aku katakan.. The simulation ran smoothly!! Serious nak nangis, dah bergenang dah airmata aku sbb aku tak buat apa sangat.. Sangat2 insaf dan aku berazam utk lebih mendekatkan diri pada-Nya.. Hanya Dia yg memiliki segala ilmu dan hanya Dia yg boleh mengizinkan sesiapa memilikinya..
This tiny experience truly humbled me.. I need to work harder, pray harder...

Afnan insist on putting her "pau" along with the ones I made.. Top right corner.. Hahahaha.. Funny girl!


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Its British summer time starting today, and we turned our clock an hour ahead.. Bestnya, feel like i am closer to home..
Oh and the banana chiffon turned alright, but i should have reduced the banana since i only did half of the measurements but put in 2 bananas.. Just 1 might be just nice, as its too moist and when we bite it, it lost its sponginess.. Better luck next time!
My darling hubby is taking the bus to London today.. All the beat to you abang sayang!
Am waiting for F1 race.. Vettel rocks.. I could not forget a couple years back on his debut I think, he crashed and the camera caught him leaning against the wall crying. Chomell.. He went on to be the youngest world champ last year..

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Depan pasar..


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Migrain.. Tapi sempat jgk buat
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Siapa saya?

Dlm oven ada kek yg ku adjust; banana chiffon.. Hahahhahahahaha resipi aku sendiri tah jadi tah idak..
Nanti akan ku tepek gambarnya kalau jadi.. Kalau sepi tu pepaham je la..


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I love seeing sunshine peeking through my curtain.. It makes me feel alive and alert! How I love spring and summer time..
At 6.15am its light already. Habis subuh 6.07 am today.. Walaupun risau jgk if i cant wake up in time, but i still like day light..
Am sooo looking forward to living back in Malaysia.. Hot n humid all year round. No layered clothes. Running water in toilets. Surau everywhere. Laungan azan around 6 am all year round. Occasional rain (constant pun xkisah). Balik kampung every other weekend. My family.. Speaking of which, my parents went on umrah yesterday and I dis not manage to call right before their flight, rather the day before. Sampai termimpi2..
The first of the two woodsley family is leaving for home this week.. Bestnya la.. But i do feel a bit sad.. Wishing them all the best.. Jumpa lg kt malaysia nanti!!


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Cuti lama sangat.. Pegang pen pun kekok..



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Of my worry free weekend..

I was so stressed out after Thusday meeting that I left all my stuff at the office. The feeling continues to Friday, I was not able to do much that once the fire alarm goes off I went straight to the library and home later. I had a worry free weekend; lazying around with Afnan on Saturday, which continues to Sunday; a short trip to Wetherby and Tropical World in Roundhay Park which turned out to be so much fun for Afnan.. She especially enjoyed the tortoise and fishes. Slept early only to be awaken by the sound of her crying. Turned out she needs to potty, but maybe sebab mamai, she cried first.. hehehehe.. Oh yeah, she hold herself from Wetherby to Subway to Tropical World, refusing to relieve herself until we reach a proper toilet!
Anyways, since I slept early, I woke up early and reached school early. The sunshine is a bonus for me today! Alhamdulillah..

My favorite stress reliever

We dealt with stress in our own way.. For me, I cook..

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3. Chocolate cheese cake


4. Dora cupcake segera



5. Red velvet yg tak red dan tak velvet.. So tak ambil gambar.. Yg pasti setiap khamis malam mesti masak2.. Just now try buat nasi ayam hainan.. Nasinya ok tp ayam dia kureng.. Best pg kalau bakar or goreng..

My Afnan showing off her skills..


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Of.. Whatever..

I was thinking this morning how I should start blogging again.. I have been putting off writing my progress report since last week. Reason being, I don’t have any idea on how and what to write.. Risking someone reading off my shoulder is not a good feeling but I am giving it a go anyway..


My break from blogging has not been easy as I would have thought. I keep thinking about the things that I should write about. And that, I would look back and read about the entries I made and treasure it.. Somehow, that was a while back. I do have a phone, but the feeling of typing quickly would give me a greater pleasure, rather than tapping the tiny screen..

Anyways, here’s some update in case I might forget one day;

1. January 2011 – We started to potty train Afnan. It was a great success. A couple of days in to the training, she would even do number 2 diapers-free. Oh and yes, she does it in the big potty.

2. February 2011 – After constant reminder of how her birthday is just around the corner and how she’s going to be 3 soon, it finally came. We had her birthday celebration on the 19th, a day earlier because we thought that my dad’s friend visiting his daughter would be coming over (but cancelled). Anyways, the party was fine, though I don’t really want to publish any pics as I did not get to invite many people as budget and space and capability limitation (can’t cook for much, not enough capacity). Maybe next year we could try a hall or play area or something. Afnan really enjoyed it especially having people singing her the birthday song!!

3. March 2010 – Is it March already??? Panic mode!! It’s my 22nd month? OMG!!

Going under the radar now..

Daa..

I have apparently dug a shallow grave for myself.. Words can provide no relief.. Ya Allah berilah petunjuk kpd hambamu ini.. Berikan kekuatan kepada ku ya Allah..


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Of ART..

One of the things i do nowadays is to read off the wikipedia. Ok, sure the info there are not, how do i say, not a form if concrete resources. But hey i got a lot of general generic knowledge! Wish i could do the same towards my pile of journal.. Sigh..
Anyways, i was reading about assissted reproductive treatment (something like that) when you are not able to conceive naturally or because of genetic reason. Apparently there are a lot of methods to achieve it.. To conceive i mean. Scrolling down the article, the cost section catches my eyes.. From medication to ivf treatment is the most expensive. Comparing a few countries like USA, Canada, UK all of which their health insurance do not cover fertility treatment. But health insurance in Israel do cover it! I was a bit taken.. Of all country.. Not sure what to make of it.. But in my opinion, inilah antara cara diorg nak meramaikan org diorg n menakluki dunia.. Up to 2 per family ye..

Of potty training..

We decided to potty-train afnan today from about 11 am after her morning bath.. The first time was a miss, in the kitchen while she was standing on her chair over by the sink playing. I was preparing lunch..
Anyways, i dressed her with a baggy sweat, brand new from Next; from boxing day of course. It easy to pull off i guess. We were asking every couple of minutes but she said she does not need to. A couple of times she said okay and i ushered her to the toilet, though nothing came of it. Then there was this time i sat her on the potty and went to the bedroom as i had to fetch i cant remember what, when i heard her calling..
Mama, mama look! I peek out of the room and saw her standing in the hallway and i rushed to her. She was pointing to the potty and it was filled.. I was so proud that i had the urge to take a picture! Of course i didnt.. Nonetheless, its a picture of her growing up before my eyes..
Well, she successfully relief herself 3 more times after that successfully in the potty.. No 1 only. I had the feeling that she needs to do No 2, as her daddy saw her holding her booty. Lets see if she can keep it up tomorrow..


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