I think i lost 4 kg! The new digital scale broke awhile ago and so that left me with the good old mechanical scale. I believe that trustworthy scale, or shouldn't I?
I guess that the main point is that it is possible! I saw and old pic in 2009 and i was a lot thinner then. Ni semua salah phd! Kurang makan sikit sakit kepala, gastrik la. stress sikit makan banyak..development of cooking, bakng skills. Oh and there was a time that baking relieves stress, i would be baking all the time! Now, the stress level is way beyond the point that baking and cooking can ever relieve. That might contribute in the slight weight loss.

Erm maybe if the digital scale is fixed or i go and get a new one it would still say that i havent lost the weight?? Nasib la kan.. ;B

Lately i love to pour my heart out to non-other Afnan. As if she understands hahaha. I got a few tips and it made my day!
1. I told her that i only like my school a little bit. What should i do? She said i need to do more writing and drawing - writing ABC and draw princess and castles etc.
2. I have been going to school on weekends (2x baru). The 2nd time, i told her that i was tired of going to school, what should i do? She said do your work at home then.. Hahaha she's really the apple of my hearts!!
And she has answers to everything! The other day when i was telling her how she should finish her food, not waste it and not throw it in the rubbish, or else the food will cry (didnt our moms said that too??) she just said to me, macam mana dia (food) nak nangis, dia xda eyes pun!!
Me speechless!

Typos

Never used to read back what i have written. Did not realised that this smart phone sometimes sukatije detect some words plus my thumb do tends to slide off the touch screen area. Anyways, will be reviewing the posts prior to publishing.. ;p

3monthsthesis

Thank you pn maya for giving the link to 3monthsthesis website. Was just reading the article on should you quit your phd. The answer was YES!? They laid out every single reason why you should quit, and they are right! But on top of it, we need to realise that phd is not everything and we do have a choice. Most importantly we have Allah to ask for help to, and hopefully he will show us the way that is meant for us..

I always feel when I get good results or get something that I want, a good feeling or anything positive, i dont feel that i deserve it. I feel really bad that i had not cite my dua enough to deserve such good things and vibes. But i do and did! I am ashamed but I am hopeful that Allah is giving me signs that i should change to a better person. Cite my dua more, improve my prayers, read quran more, be a better mom, wife, daughter, sister, a better person overall. I hope to become all that and more.
I have had a big slap to the face just recently, with regards to my work. I took it very badly. But a good thing came out of it. I felt stronger than ever before. Allah has shown me time and time again that on his willing, ANYTHING can happen. I kept that in mind, and time after time he has shown it. Semuanya atas izin Allah. My phd story is nowhere near the end, but dengan izinnya, i believe it will one day. I strongly believe that it will. I have one more day to complete a phase (the first), after which 2 more phases will follow.

I do hope that they dont take 2 and a half years each! Haha

Confuse.. Especially bila cikgu xbanyak komen. Ok kah? Xok kah?

Tapi tips yg paling berguna (in my own words) - tulis la macamana pun, yg penting rationalise it.

Ya, time of the essence. Bekerja keliling jam (working around the clock). Hehehhehe direct translation

I am waiting for a few sets of simulations to run. These runs should only take a couple seconds but its been thousands of seconds. There is possible minus adjustment i cant be bothered for reasons in my head.
Anyways, i am searching for a mssong file. Last time i saw it was back in june because i needed a form but i don t think i have seem it since. Benda paling xsuka buat ialah memcari benda.. Xsuka xsuka.. Terus xda mood nak bermultitask. Byk je yg menanti: (1x7x4) + (1x6x4)2 = 28 + 48 = 76

Am a walking zombie

May this increase my motivation in finishing my studies..
Ameen..

I am so tired! At school xbyk progress in wrapping up this one chapter. Susah betul nak writing ni ye.. I had an outline of things that I wanted to say but it did not work out the way i had hope. Xminum coffee mengantuk. Itu lg satu yg i failed to understand.. Stress byk keke but ngantuk tetap ngantuk. Xpelik ke?
The semangat might have rubbed off. Sikit je lagi.. Eh banyak, but kena buat sikit2..
Oh ye the annoying thing is when i got an idea flow but need to pee.. Did not want to leave my seat!!

My baby's got what i had- sakit kaki. Kurang makan, banyak jalan= sakit kaki.. A trait.. Did not know it was possible to pass it on.. Nasib la baby ku..