Macam ni rasanya buat phd.. Bila rasa terjatuh off of a cliff macam dlm movie, fell and fell tapi still xkena tanah.. Terkapai2.. Teringat pesan mak, bila kita sedih xda siapa boleh bantu, hanya pada Allah tempat kita mengadu..

PhD is a journey; for a certificate, whatever awaits bila balik nanti, most importantly a process of self discovery. Initially i thought of it of something that makes me put my life on hold but its not. It is life, the path that was chosen for me by Allah. Sometimes ada rasa yang dah tak larat sangat, tp bila fikir sikit je lagi. I did not even know what it meant..

One of the lowest point in my phd life by strings of events; virus, no back up, failed hard disk, failure to reinstall the software I am using. And the cream topping it off my fob was deactivated.

Semua ok dpt diatasi Alhamdulillah though just using a spare pc. Then xboleh remote desktop, gastric tp still gagahkan diri pegi troubleshoot. Then I got fruity pavlova on top of the cream tadi; my main file xboleh buka. Build sana build baru lama whatever and mmg menekan butang shutdown pc otakku la.. Became sleepy and slept through the day sampai cik abg sayang pun heran, apsal asyik tidur je.. Bila google, rupanya mmg ada drowsy from stress and it make you sleepy all day.

So thats last week; the last week of being a 3rd year phd student. This week the file problem still xresolve but I dont want to waste anymore time so buat balik je la the WHOLE thing. Camt bear anymore heartache..

Harapnya hari mendatang ini akan diberi kekuatan, kesabaran untuk menghadapi sebarang dugaan..

Its Friday 07062012 and lets start a new page (thesisthesisthesis)