Di persimpangan dilema.
Time is running out.
Panicked inside, dan ianya terzahir.
Dah tak sabar nak balik, kalau boleh seawal mungkin.
Limbo is the state that I am in.
Suntikan semangat dah diterima, tp rasa masih tersekat.
Ada something.
Banyak benda nak kena fikir, perlu disenarai menurut kepentingan, keperluan dan keinginan and topped of with rational justification..

These are just random thoughts playing in my mind..

Nak phd nak balik nak submit nak lulus je..

Bila dengar or baca kisah apa2 samada baik or buruk, kita boleh bermuhasabah dgn mengaitkannya dgn kita sendiri. Perlu ambil iktibar..
*semua ni dicoret dgn intonasi yg mellow & insaf.. :)

Bila kita terjatuh its natural to look up to see where we should be. But, to be there we should look down to see where we should go.

Bila kita rasa down, kita akan rasa apa yg orang lain ada tu sgt best. Apa yg patut kita buat ialah tgk orang lain yang takda apa yg kita ada. Allah maha adil, kelebihan orang dr satu segi, kekurangan dia kt tpt lain. Macam kita sendiri, kelebihan tu kadang2 kita tak nampak, tp mungkin org lain nampak. Kita je yg rasa susah. Subhanallah Allah menempatkan semua pada tempatnya. Banyak sangat telah terbukti.
Perlu bersyukur atas apa yg kita ada, pesanan pada hati sendiri. Mungkin kita xfinancially stable but are debt free. Rezeki dpt anak yang sihat, hati tenang (wpun bila fikir pasal phd jd xtenang). Oh ye, harap2 dia dpt faham mama dia yg weng. Harap2 bila everything is settled i could make up for loss time. I really hope that i could be better mother. Am not doing such a good job right now.. :(

Under the radar unnoticed..

I just want to get by!

Uninspired

I am upset and angry.

Should not be all that.

Have to redha, something better will come along.

But its hard! Accepting it as the weakness of being hamba Allah..

I love the sunshine and the early sunrise. I feel my spirit is lifted as it intensity increases.. If one said home is where the heart is, I would say Malaysia is home. That is where my heart is. Physically I am where I am, but in truth I am home. I will work hard to be united with my heart. It's not a gloomy entry, rather to keep up my motivation. Good luck for the rest of the day!

Semalam mcm biasa ada weekly meeting. Khamis kan.. I prepared a presentation, tp xsempat sbb the cikgu was looking through my abstract. Word by word. Teringat masa buat report eac dulu.. Fun with friends, tp x dgn sifu2 inglais.. Begitu menekankan penggunaan perkataan yg tepat bila menulis... Belajar belajar

A note to myself. No, you did not lose 4 kg. even if you did, you must have gained it back.

The-I-lost-4-kg entry has been haunting me.

Nanti dah hbs phd nanti, insyaAllah, usaha utk kurus akan kembali.. I just could not handle it at the moment. Work-related stress is mind boggling. Its using up my brain, taking up my akal (pompuan kn ada 1 je).. Need to stay strong..